Deep Down

Deep down I know I will never touch your lips
Deep down I know I will never lay in your arms
Deep down I know I will never hear the words
Deep down I know I will never feel your heartbeat
Deep down I know I will never run my fingers through your hair
Deep down I know I will never play in fields with you
Deep down I know I will never look in to your eyes
Deep down I know I will never be yours
Deep down I know you will never be mine

 

Deep down is a place I avoid
Deep down is a voice I mute
Deep down is a truth I deny
Deep down is a soul I drown
Deep down is an empty hollowed trunk full of you

 

Deep down, I need to hear what is being said
Deep down, I need to see the truth
Deep down, I will grow old, alone without you
Deep down, I know I should move on
Deep down, I know I should close this door
Deep down, I know I should find another
Deep down, I know, I should acknowledge my deep down
Deep down I am hopefully hopeless
Deep down I am helpless

This Black Hole

Written: Feb 12, 08 

 A black hole
Deep, dark
I look in
Trying, searching
For the cause, for the end

Why this darkness?
When will I reach the bottom of the well?
I am falling
Is it a bottomless pit?
It narrows, it suffocates
It is despair

I am blind when there is light
I am flailing when there is support
I am lost when there is hope

This hole will be the end of me
This hole will drown me
This black hole