Neptune Calling

Ever seductive
Ever powerful
Your call is constant
I stand at your feet
A slave.

Listening to your whispering surf
White foam gurgling at my feet
I want to heed your call
I want to fall at your feet
I want to walk into your depths
I want to keep walking
In to your welcoming barnacles.

I can feel your waters engulf me
And your tentacles embrace me
As I am pulled down into your liar
In your throne, at the depths of the ocean
An eternal sleep at your feet.

Though your seduction is complete
I will not heed
I will not take that first step
If I do it will be the last
If I do I will walk until I am yours.

Oh mighty Neptune
Why do you call?
It is not my time yet
I cannot fall, even though I want to
I cannot be one with you yet.

Though you call oh mighty Neptune
I am still in the land of the living
I walk amongst them
Your lure is not for me
not tonight at least.

Deep Down

Deep down I know I will never touch your lips
Deep down I know I will never lay in your arms
Deep down I know I will never hear the words
Deep down I know I will never feel your heartbeat
Deep down I know I will never run my fingers through your hair
Deep down I know I will never play in fields with you
Deep down I know I will never look in to your eyes
Deep down I know I will never be yours
Deep down I know you will never be mine

 

Deep down is a place I avoid
Deep down is a voice I mute
Deep down is a truth I deny
Deep down is a soul I drown
Deep down is an empty hollowed trunk full of you

 

Deep down, I need to hear what is being said
Deep down, I need to see the truth
Deep down, I will grow old, alone without you
Deep down, I know I should move on
Deep down, I know I should close this door
Deep down, I know I should find another
Deep down, I know, I should acknowledge my deep down
Deep down I am hopefully hopeless
Deep down I am helpless

I want…

I want fluffy warm socks.
I want my hot water bottle always full always warm.
I want a hot meal waiting for me at the end of a long day.
I want arms to hold me in a hug after a long hard day at work.
I want a shoulder to fall asleep on while watching TV.
I want a night full of sleep.
I want to see the world from high above.
I want to see the sun set on the Indian Ocean.
I want to swim with whales.
I want to wrestle with giants.
I want a conversation with God.
But most of all , right now, I want fluffy warm socks to keep my toes from falling off.